Feeling dead can make you feel more alive

One of the best feelings in the gym one can have is that questionable feeling is whether you alive or dead.  Finishing that one set where you have pushed your body so hard that when your rack the weights your are not sure if you have actually died or still sitting there.  Sitting there feeling like you cant breath, everything is just loud echo, and your body is numb.  those are the days when your body..your mind changes.  YOu have pushed through that barrier and your workout will never be the same.

The Chicken or the Egg

So as I sit here watching The Dark Knight Rises, i think to myself...Why do we do what we do..as bodybuilders...or really why do I do this.  I love training til i see spots and I cant breath...and yes I feel much better when i eat clean, but in the end of the day why.  Do i do this because I am am active competitive bodybuilder, or do I compete because i already do that.  Its kind of a hard question to ask, but i feel its important. I feel these are the questions we need to ask ourselves to get a better understanding of why we do anything.

a good workout can do wonders

Its amazing who much good a great workout can do for the soul... speaking from personal experience.  Recently my family has gone through some medical hardships..i wont get into details..but everyone is ok.  When i first got the news there was very little i could do.  I went to the hosptial but I didnt really feel like it was me sitting there.  I still had to go to work later that day so before my shift started I went to the gym.  As my blood began to pump and my muscles began to swell i started to feell human again.  Work was good and everything fell into place.  The gym gave me the clearity (meditation) I needed to deal with things.  Again everyone is fine and doing well...but a good workout really can sooth the soul.

tip for Thanksgiving

Happy thanksgiving everyone.  A small tip efore inging would be to have a protein shake before eating.  it will help fill you up plus the protein will help slow down the burn ratre of all the cars so it will lessen the insulin spike..enjoy

Always on the move, but going nowhere fast

Cardio...Most people hate it..I'm one of them.  But its the best way to burn the most amount of calories in a short amount of time.  I find he best way to get over it is to do intervals.  But the best way to get through it is to find something to keep your mind off of it.  I use cardio as my time to be mad..Whatever is bothering me, school, work, family or girls. I figure I'm stuck in one place so why not figure things out that bother me.  I can use it so see the other side of the argument..or if its even worth be upset...what the hell..its not like im going anywhere..fast.

Shit Gets Real

So it would nice if we could all spend our days training and eating like the top pros..but the reality is most of us dont have that luxury.  Some days I have everything lined up and all my meals work and my training is great.  But sometimes reality kicks things in.  There have been times where I'm in the middle of eating a pre train meal and I get called into work.  Sometimes my family needs help..ect..ect...ect 
we have all been there.  Not to mention the times it's time to eat and I have no food ready...or much worse need to feed and having no food left in the house.  It's just the price I pay for picking this life style.  I'm not complaining but this is just some of the stuff I (we) deal with being a bodybuilder.

Sweating it out

So recently I have taken up my old habits of working out in sweats.  A lot of people have been asking me why...so here you go. First it's not because Kai does it, and its not to make me sweat more (not a whole lot of reason for that..im holding fat not water), and its not to look cool.  I do it because it helps me train.  When being covered up I cant see myself in the mirrors.  There is no more hey look how pumped i am..or damn i look fat today.  there is only a covered figure there to work.  Being covered allows me to focus with "blinders" if you will.  Life gives us enough distractions..no reason why yourself should be one.

Ok..so this sucks

So here's the annoying deal.  After almost giving me liver failure the dr. finally okay-ed me to start training (lightly), but start none the less.  I got one small session in, shoulders and hams, and now I have a fucking sinus cold.  I've spent the past two days pretty much sleeping.  I'm starting to feel better but still taking it easy.  Right now its just a sore throat wich i hate training with that.  It makes it so hard to grunt.  I will be back sooner than later.

in the begining

So here's the deal.  I've been a bodybuilder for years, but latley this year has been a cluster fuck of stuff.  First I had surgery, then i was in school, then i was on antibiotic and not that same antibiotic gave me hepatitis.  But after months of self pitty I'm done.  I have started back with my coach and friend Troy Tate, a top level national bodybuilder.
This blog is going to be about what's reallyinside my head while I get myself back into shape and as I eventually start prepping for a show...that I will win...